So, hi.

I just realised this really awkward post haunting the top of my blog. well, I don’t really clarify things, but this time, it’s just really awkward cause I’m no longer angry but then again, I don’t feel like deleting that post cause it truly reflects my feelings back then.

Well, guys, I mean no harm, so don’t feel awkward. I’m still totally in love with Petrine. It’s just sometimes, I don’t want her to be my kryptonite, I’m really selfish and competitive. I never want to lose, let alone show my weaknesses. I’ll totally give in to her every time, and I always thought she’d sacrifice me just to maintain peace with every one. A true libra, I’m probably the Scorpio one.

But then again, that is not the point, she was right. All my worries were uncalled for, I had so much fun in Korea with all of you guys, that all the disagreements totally faded into the background. Given a chance, I would totally go overseas with you guys 10 years later, maybe not Korea. Traumatised, if you know what I mean.

Now for some random things, I’m quite surprised there are actually people who still read my blog. Wow, fantastic baby. So despite all the awkwardness, I’m still feeling a happy inside to see that spike in viewership. Thats all for now, till then when I get the energy to blog about the Korea trip. I love you guys, and Petrine, definitely.

Sometimes I really hate it when you say you can convince me. I hate how you always side people instead of me. You were right, you always side people. It started with Xianying, and now Glenda. Let’s just hope this post doesn’t get published. I’ve never wanted to hide anything from you. But at this point of time, I just want you to be happy. That is why this post is scheduled for 13th May, when we all come back from Korea. When all these is over. Honestly, I’m really turned off by the fact of going to Korea now. I realise I can never win, and when you people say that you’re against the world and everything, that is not true. Even Glenda, who is the most alike me person ever, has you on her side. So she is never alone against the world. Whereas for me, no matter how logical my argument is, it is never supported. Cause I speak for the mute. I speak for people who don’t dare to speak up. I speak for myself too, I don’t deny that. Why is it that we have to go to such extends to avoid quarrels, why can’t we fight for our rights? Is it really that important to avoid quarrels? and why am I always the one giving in? I hate giving in. I hate giving in more when I have to give in because it’s you. I hate how Glenda and Xianying always gets their way cause they are girls. How Xianying can get all the sympathy votes because she is petite and she cries. How Glenda always manages to use sarcasm to instil fear and get things going her way. I really hate how everything is going now. I have a feeling this is not the end, there are going to be so many more quarrels coming up. There are even going to be quarrels when we reach Korea. I may not know how to play mind games well, in fact I hate playing mind games. I hate quarreling too, I hate giving in as well. But if I have to give in without a quarrel, that is my nemesis. It’s like giving up without a fight. I know going to Jeju is not a bad idea, but the money spent is. I’m really broke now, and I’m digging deep into my reserves just to go to Korea. Besides this trip, I still have to go for trips with my clique and my classmates. Maybe I shouldn’t have went to Korea, seriously. Maybe this is all a bad idea, we shall see when this get published. but mark my words, this is not the end, this is only the beginning of all the quarrels that are going to come up. sure, I’ll give in. I’m going to sit back and not plan anything now. cause with Glenda and me on board, there are definitely going to be quarrels cause there can never be two leaders.

It just so happened that both Petrine and I didn’t have to work today, so we decided on a picnic at Sentosa. I swear it’s one of the happiest days of my life this year, today was just plain awesome. We prepared our picnic lunch and headed over there, despite the persistent rain, we still managed to have fun and camwhore over there. As usual, the pig in me packed so much food that we couldn’t finish it. The rain stopped after a while, and we managed to have a little swim before heading off to Vivo for an impromptu movie, Battleships, which was fabulous. The movie was so light hearted even though it was about aliens invading earth and a possible extinction for humanity.

Today’s just one of the best days. Awesome.

 

My one and only, and the chocolates she gave me. Awesome little surprise. ♥

 

Been gorging on too much good food lately, buffets after buffets, restaurants after restaurants. It’s time to take a break from all these fat-rich food and stick to some home-cooked food. So, I went to Hard Rock Cafe today, it’s my first time there and I was really shocked at the ambience, it was so awesome that I felt like a hard rocker instantly.

Tried out their speciality10oz burger, and you must really be a big eater to finish eat. I admit, I’m a big eater but I felt super duper full that I could vomit any time. The beef was good, but I should have asked for medium done instead of medium-rare. Too much of a blood taste. I wonder if any one does eat their beef totally uncooked. Hmm.

I’m starting work tomorrow, at fucking tuas. I’m not too sure if I should be happy or not. It’s going to be another unfamiliar environment, in a unfamiliar place. and that scumbag agent is probably not going to pick up my call even though he asks me to call him when I reach the factory tomorrow. I hope all ends well.

Xiao Long Bao Buffet with my classmates yesterday, it was awesome. I’m not particularly a fan of xiao long baos, but after yesterday, it did change my perception a little. I remembered eating xiao long bao somewhere else and it wasn’t up to expectation, but crystal jade’s xiao long baos are awesome, worth the money too.

It was a little sinful, we had our buffet dinner at 10pm, just imagine all that fats accumulating. One thing I really hate about certain buffets is that you have to order the raw food and have it delivered to you. It somewhat defeats the purpose of a buffet when you cannot get the amount of food you desire, instead it comes in portions. and you have to wait for the waiter to take your order, and wait for the kitchen to prepare your order when you could have took the food and finished it.

but overall, the ambience’s not bad as well. the soup’s really not bad, and one thing you’ve got to try is the peanut paste sauce, super duper nice.

Last CSCC Day, took so little pictures that my fingers could count them all. Feels good to have graduated, but then again the nostalgia always remains. I’ve finally gotten my results two days ago. I’ve finally unofficially graduated. Even though it’s not a result that I’m extremely proud of, but I’m glad I’m able to graduate.

There are going to be mixed feelings as I move on to the next phase of my life, but now I’m just stuck in transition, and being stuck sucks. Problems arising, mostly due to money, and more money. I just want this to be over and done with.

So I’ve been looking for different jobs recently to tide me over for my graduation trips. I happened to stumble upon this suspicious looking recruitment ad on the newspapers, but I was kinda desperate yet enticed by the $60/day offer. So I called the number and my friends and I went down for the interview straight away. It looked even more suspicious when the office was in the middle of nowhere, but the inside of the office was well-furbished. Little did I know, it almost became the start of a nightmare.

This company is called Granton Singapore, it revolves around a theory called the Granton theory and ds-max theory. There are also various other companies based overseas, but this is probably the Singapore branch. I’m sure many of you have encountered hard-selling promoters. To the world outside, these people are probably just pests who try to sell their merchandise to you and irritates the hell out of you. But people hardly know what is going on in the company. I was kinda freaked out when on my first day, a typical day started of with comrades pitching to one another in the company. This was their way of training themselves to be persuasive and competent. After a few hours of that, they would reward people who had performed well the previous day and give them recognition. After that, there would be some real preaching about the Granton’s theory which in fact, is mindfucking brainwash.

It all seems legit, trust me, everything seems legit. Until you step outside, you’re given a target to meet, and when you don’t meet the target, you’re considered a burden to the team. Bear in mind, you don’t stay in one place to promote, you have to meet every single person, and try to sell your merchandise. It’s 10 straight hours of work and sometimes, its even more. If you’re lucky, you’ll probably get your lunch. I suppose I can’t really do a good job explaining all these, but you can find more information here, http://wolfram.org/scam/ds_max/index.html It’s really frightening cause these people, especially the people on the leadership side, they do not allow negative thoughts or allow you to influence people with negative thoughts. They are constantly sniffing people like these out.

It’s something like the high-profiled multi-level marketing every one probably knows about. Its just that it’s slightly better, you don’t have to pump in money at the start. But you’ll soon realise the money you’re making is not worth your time, and if you’re stuck there, you’re probably brainwashed to believe you can make big bucks, own a car and house in a while.

All I wanna say is, I’m glad I quitted. The entire place looks like some evil cult.

Okay, so my exams are over and I’ve unofficially graduated from SP. It’s not exactly a wonderful feeling, there’s always this lingering part of you that doesn’t want to leave, be it your primary school, your secondary school or whatever. All good things come to and end, and so, my poly life has come to an end. Especially after today’s fyp handover ceremony. That is, if I don’t repeat any of my modules which I highly doubt I will. So life’s going to be so much harder now, there’s NS coming up soon, and it’ll be *BAM* I’m in the motherfucking pretentious working world. Which just happens to prove my point cause, I got kinda screwed by this recruitment agency called BGC. I was already confirmed for some job, which that agent, last minute told me that oh, I can’t work for it anymore cause the previous guy decided to extend his contract or something. This is something extremely irritating because I was given hope at first, hope, and then hope was taken away from me. It would have been less frustrating if he had been more clear and responsible on his part and tell me this job was unavailable. But oh well, shit happens, now I’m gonna look for more jobs to tide me over all these overseas trips.

Wow, it’s been a really really long break from blogging. I’ve been busy. That’s what I always say, and that is what always happens. It’s exam week, and I proud to be left with my last paper. My last paper that’s keeping me from graduation. Up till now, I believe I still can graduate. Somehow or someway, it’s not about the gpa anymore. It’s about being able to graduate. I don’t want to flunk any particular module and be in SP for another semester, that would be stupid. But so far, so good I would say. I’m more afraid of that last paper cause I’ll probably slack off from now on and not study for the last paper that I have absolutely no idea and I have not touched anything on it cause I keep telling myself I have 8 days to study. In that 8 days, probably I only take like 1 or 2 days to study and then, it’s panic at the exam hall.

Anyway, it’s been a really stressful few weeks, after all that fyp shit, comes the exam shit, and the work shit. Now for the work shit part, my eczema on my fingers came back, just after like a week at my new workplace, Muddy Murphy’s. It’s an awesome working environment there, and it feels great to be part of their family the first day I stepped in. There is such a homely feeling there compared to St James where all the reality about life comes in. All the deception and being wary of people, bad memories. I never thought I’d leave Muddy Murphy’s, at least not until my NS. But then, reality came crashing down, and there, that’s it. My fingers look like they’re rotten now, I don’t wanna take a picture of them. But luckily it’s not as bad as before cause I stopped the moment I felt it was coming back. Oh well, now I have to start looking for a new job cause with all that graduation trips coming up, and my driving test, all that’s going to cost money, and loads of them as well. I seriously have no idea how I am going to get all that money man.

It seems like my future is a maze from now till NS. I have like graduation trips stuck in the middle and I have no idea when I’m going into NS, everything is chaos now. Well, I guess I’ll just take it as it goes. I’ve downloaded WordPress for iPhones, but I never ever use it. Somehow, typing on my computer is so much comforting and I can just rant all my thoughts out.

So back to the fyp shit, I have like only these few days to really touch up my project and hand it over to St Luke’s. It’s like saying goodbye to a newborn baby that you’ve been caring for, for the past 9 months I think. and you watch it grow, literally. shucks.